Day 3, or actually day a couple weeks plus 3.
I woke up at 5:13 am to go to the bathroom. At first it seemed normal, because for the past couple months I have been waking up at least twice a night. Then I realized I am not going to the bathroom because my uterus is pushing on my bladder. I also realized that usually I woke up around 5:45am, and it was a half hour earlier than what had become "normal". Maybe my bladder is even moving on. Then the waves of sorrow hit me again and I start to cry.
This morning I was brought back to a scene in one of my favorite movies, Singles. In it Kyra Sedgewick's character is in an car accident in which she loses her baby. After she is home from the hospital her boyfriend (played by Campbell Scott) comes over to see how she is doing. I can vividly remember her saying to him, "It's like I have a new emotion every 5 minutes". I now feel exactly that same way. She then got on a boat and headed off to work in Alaska for a few months. I want to be on that boat.
I know that feelings like these will come and go, and come and go, and come and go, and...
I woke up at 5:13 am to go to the bathroom. At first it seemed normal, because for the past couple months I have been waking up at least twice a night. Then I realized I am not going to the bathroom because my uterus is pushing on my bladder. I also realized that usually I woke up around 5:45am, and it was a half hour earlier than what had become "normal". Maybe my bladder is even moving on. Then the waves of sorrow hit me again and I start to cry.
This morning I was brought back to a scene in one of my favorite movies, Singles. In it Kyra Sedgewick's character is in an car accident in which she loses her baby. After she is home from the hospital her boyfriend (played by Campbell Scott) comes over to see how she is doing. I can vividly remember her saying to him, "It's like I have a new emotion every 5 minutes". I now feel exactly that same way. She then got on a boat and headed off to work in Alaska for a few months. I want to be on that boat.
I know that feelings like these will come and go, and come and go, and come and go, and...
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